This weekend we made gingerbread houses per Brooks' request. Randomly I was sent a copy of Parenting magazine and in an attempt to appease their restlessness in the car one day I passed back the unopened magazine. In which it silenced the screaming and fighting with his sister and he found the article on homemade gingerbread houses then informed me of his desire to make them this Christmas. Also using the term, made, loosely here because I pulled these pre assembled gingerbreads from their Wilton box and the kids went to town frosting and placing candy every which way till their hearts content. Admittedly there were a few talks, Brooks mostly, about the importance of decorating with the candy more than eat it but overall they did pretty good I think. I did reserve some candy strictly for eating but placing a structure made entirely of cookies & candy in front of children and telling them its not for eating is counter productive and my reserved candy bribe didn't stretch as far as I'd hoped.
Christmas is always a busy season and it can be hard to keep up with all of the expectations and traditions. This year though I've been feeling a little more scattered than normal. Being in a new house has a lot to do with it I think, holidays spent in a new home always feel a bit foreign and unfamiliar. Mostly though the scattered feeling has to do with the renewing of our Foster Care license by the end of the month! We've had months to get everything in order but life with four children this time around has proven to slow me down in areas I once met with swiftness and accuracy. We simply fell behind. It's important that we are licensed soon for something, possibly something, happening end of January. With this and other distractions I've decided to pass on some typical Christmas traditions for us, this is the first year I've been perfectly okay to say no without feeling overwhelming guilt. My bandwith just isn't what its been before and thats okay, somethings can wait until next year.
I have the intention of coming to this space more frequently in the new year as well as writing more of this possibility mentioned above. I know I've vowed to be here many times before but timing is proving to be something I underestimated. 2019 is the year I intend to concentrate more on my creative outlets, this space specifically. For now I'm finishing out 2018 with feelings of gratitude for the year that taught me a lot, mostly the hard way, and appreciation for my family and the opportunity given me to love them and raise them knowing more of unconditional love than I ever did.